My awkward expression was returned with blank stares from them.
I figure they were doing what I had always done and trying to protect themselves from judging glances. Like any human being, I don't want to be with anyone who doesn't want to be with me.
So that caveat aside, I can tell you what my experiences have been in the past and where they've since arrived since arguing with myself about this for a long time.
Maybe 15 years ago and before that, I took a lot of things personally.
In a long and storied dating life, I've only had meaningful relationships with a few black men. Of course, our numbers (black women) are greater and many more of us are single, but that's sociological and statistical in a way that love never is.